Saturday, December 31, 2011

Alice Notley: Then I Became Mercy

Then I Became Mercy

     Then I became Mercy with her one thousand arms; they were all I was. All over my front and from my back – I had no hidden thoughts. No time, it seemed, for the Secret. The arms were the space of me: what was my face? I tried for a delicate Korean aspect at first, but then I might as well be the cloud: am I the cloud? I’m still not sure. Having the arms one scarcely sees what one does with them. Obviously one cannot choose who one’s merciful to, one doesn't even see them! It’s all arms, arms, arms. I think it works by my simply having the arms, they are what you need; you touch one, and it’s done. You've obtained mercy, which is what? Cessation of your suffering for a time. How do I have this ability? All I can say is that I accepted the arms, the arms themselves. It’s contained in the leap from not having the arms to having them. Once you have them, that’s it. 

Alice Notley, from Culture of One

Thursday, December 29, 2011

Kindness, by Naomi Shihab Nye

Kindness

Before you know what kindness really is
you must lose things,
feel the future dissolve in a moment
like salt in a weakened broth.
What you held in your hand,
what you counted and carefully saved,
all this must go so you know
how desolate the landscape can be
between the regions of kindness.
How you ride and ride
thinking the bus will never stop,
the passengers eating maize and chicken
will stare out the window forever.

Before you learn the tender gravity of kindness,
you must travel where the Indian in a white poncho
lies dead by the side of the road.
You must see how this could be you,
how he too was someone
who journeyed through the night with plans
and the simple breath that kept him alive.

Before you know kindness as the deepest thing inside,
you must know sorrow as the other deepest thing. 
You must wake up with sorrow.
You must speak to it till your voice
catches the thread of all sorrows
and you see the size of the cloth.

Then it is only kindness that makes sense anymore,
only kindness that ties your shoes
and sends you out into the day to mail letters and
     purchase bread,
only kindness that raises its head
from the crowd of the world to say
it is I you have been looking for,
and then goes with you every where
like a shadow or a friend.
 



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Naomi Shihab Nye
from The Words Under the Words: Selected Poems 

Sunday, December 25, 2011

Che fece .... il gran rifiuto

Che fece .... il gran rifiuto

To certain people there comes a day
when they must say the great Yes or the great No.
He who has the Yes ready within him
immediately reveals himself, and saying it he follows

his honor and his own conviction.
He who refuses does not repent. Should he be asked again,
he would say no again. And yet that no --
the right no -- crushes him for the rest of his life.

Constantine P. Cavafy (1901) 

Ring of Bone, Lew Welch

I saw myself 
a ring of bone 
in the clear stream 
of all of it

and vowed, 
always to be open to it 
that all of it 
might flow through

and then heard 
“ring of bone” where 
ring is what a

bell does.

—Lew Welch

Reflections: One Night in January, 2011

Reflections: One Night in January, 2011

The stories we tell one another 
with equations and statistics, 
sentences and sounds, 
ringing and pealing
true or hollow;
even the truth of hollow.

(O Shirakawa, the Kamo River is a god
Its water magically turning red and green.)
PW's White River Ode circa 1966.

Something BIG &
Brown!

Stylistically revealing
The finger tips on
The IPhone,
the ear phone
VARIANTS.

PW says: “I think ‘form’ is for crystals or for the thing after it has been seen. OK, form it or arrange it to suit your vision, if that’s how you want to spend your afternoons; the things ALREADY have a shape, Ginsberg is absolutely right, MIND IS SHAPELY, ART IS SHAPELY.”

one rock
clinging
time
to morsel.

See Book of Serenity, Case 90.

PW:
he got bigger over time, and bigger.
It was good to walk behind him or alongside,
the swath so wide,
the underbrush, the thicket, brambles and thorns
no longer seeming of
consequence.

Monday, December 19, 2011

Open to the Boundless Heart of Being.


Some Notes From Words of Encouragement: 7th night of Samish Island Sesshin, 26 June 2009

Good Evening:

For those of you who do not know me, my name is John Bailes.  I am a member of what I call Norman’s Stray Cat Zen Lineage.  He took me in a few years ago while travelling in New England, invited me to sit sesshin with him and the various sanghas with which he works.  The next thing I knew I was adopted by the Northwest Sangha: Red Cedar and Mountain Rain, retaking the precepts with Norman and having my ordination name re-translated into the English.  Kotatsu Roko now translates as Immense Arrival Brilliant Disclosure.

Encouragement:  Webster’s says of this word: to give courage, hope or confidence, to embolden, to hearten.  Hearten means to cheer up and cheer, from the Middle English, means bearing or demeanor.  Bearing and demeanor, posture is everything in Zen.  It is how we stand, how we sit, walk, approach, depart, that heartens – our bearing up right and open hearted, direct.

Courage comes from the French corage meaning heart or spirit.  It is the attitude of facing or dealing with anything dangerous, difficult or painful – instead of withdrawing from it – a quality of being fearless.  Remember our Bodhisattva training in the Heart Sutra: The Bodhisattva is without hindrances, or walls as Red Pine would put it, and therefore fearless…brave valorous.

An obsolete form has courage as mind, purpose, in the sense of intention, and spirit again.

As we know in the Far East heart and mind are one.  It is neither intellect, nor emotion but another intelligence; a Being or Presence which is boundless, an Opening which we are and to which we gain access through the practice of zazen and sesshin. The entire intention of this sesshin is to establish ourselves in this courage, to thoroughly apply ourselves to this form – as bearing and demeanor – and through this practice Open to the Boundless Heart of Being.

In this space love arises – love lightens and buoys us – we float together in this viscous, luminous breath of emptiness.  Stillness and Silence – our forms are our language.  Even in this so cherished silence, in this very stillness we are communicating, we are encouraging one another to let go of that gravity ridden body and mind, to release into that being that arises like a lotus in muddy water.

It is in this space that we learn what listening is.  We no longer jump into the gap. Fill that gap with a name, an explanation, a definition.  We let things be as they are: birds, dust mites, thoughts, dreams, emotions.  We listen, we hear, we let go. 

Like a Great Blue Heron waiting for a fish, we stand in beauty.  Our speaking becomes a listening.  No longer are thoughts and words divisive, but they arise like flowers from emptiness. 

The Japanese word IKI can be translated as Grace – in this grace there is no subject object relationship.

IKI is the breath of the stillness of luminous delight.

IKI is the breath of the stillness of luminous delight.

It is what ensnares us and carries us away into stillness.  There is in it nothing anywhere of stimulus and impression.  The delight is some kind of hint that beckons us on.  It is the message of the veils that are opened and opening, peeling back.  Presence has its source in grace – in this sense of the pure delight of the stillness which calls to us.

The Japanese word for language is KOTO BA. 

BA means leaves, including and especially the leaves of a blossom – petals.  Think of cherry and plum blossoms.

KOTO then would be the experience of the occurrence of the lightening message of grace.  Lightening here refers to less weight, in a sense less gravity or sense of rising to meet, as well as the lighting of darkness.

So then language is: the leaves/petals/blossoms that issue forth from that delight which is the radiance of the uniquely unrepeatable moment in the fullness of its grace: the fish for heron, the mite in the light sunbeam for Jeff,
the altar flower arrangement for our Ino, John.

Think of your speech, your words issuing forth from this radiant grace.

Where do our words come from?

What does their speaking satisfy?

Thank you and Good Night.

Wednesday, December 14, 2011

On Angels by Czeslaw Milosz


On Angels by Czeslaw Milosz
All was taken away from you: white dresses,
wings, even existence.
Yet I believe you,
messengers.

There, where the world is turned inside out,
a heavy fabric embroidered with stars and beasts,
you stroll, inspecting the trustworthy seems.

Shorts is your stay here:
now and then at a matinal hour, if the sky is clear,
in a melody repeated by a bird,
or in the smell of apples at close of day
when the light makes the orchards magic.

They say somebody has invented you
but to me this does not sound convincing
for the humans invented themselves as well.

The voice -- no doubt it is a valid proof,
as it can belong only to radiant creatures,
weightless and winged (after all, why not?),
girdled with the lightening.

I have heard that voice many a time when asleep
and, what is strange, I understood more or less
an order or an appeal in an unearthly tongue:

day draw near
another one
do what you can.

WHAT'S SUPPRESSED from Disobedience by Alice Notley





WHAT'S SUPPRESSED
from Disobedience
by Alice Notley




I dream I'm a detective a man
trying to catch a woman
I'm in a barroom with small reflector-mirrors
high in each corner.
She's in the locked back room.
I pretend to be drunk

to blend in until she comes out?
into this room of the self full
of others and mirrors.

She is the soul.

--------------------------
 
Always trying to find
that back room that being
is there only such a thing as brute form wherewith,
a cheap Chandleresque detection device
a man with a coat and a gun
a room with mirrors because
I can't leave your company, your approval.

I like the mirrors, their silver
small hints of the total reflectiveness,
the litup soul/self I have been
from time to time I can't remember.

--------------------------
 
Down at the real corner car, no one wants
to be here in August.
                     Six men playing cards
and drinking red wine. I stare at thin
hair dyed red
of wizened woman paying
for glass of white bordeaux
she didn't drink it all, she smiles
someone in the habit of trying to be interesting
a former tart, it's horrible that I think like that.

--------------------------
 
Hypnotize self into a fantasy world
a world of caves. (Yes, I do this, I can.)
Sit down before a rock wall with writing on it.
Let whatever   the E's are sharp when I touch them.
That common letter. it's surface everywhere

A shadowy man in a gun-coat has come to find me.
Why do I like these caves so much?
He seems to be asking the question.
Because evidence left in them
is our subject of detection. Is what's lost
to the presumably awakened world

I'm, we're, the result or flower of suppression.
Much of one is suppressed
towards being another kind of one
other colors, petal arrangements, scents
you can only have one scent
I want to know what I've forgotten
for 50,000 years. Think of those ridiculous déesses
so-called Venuses, in French museums.
What do I know. It's so fatiguing to hate you men.
 
--------------------------
 
Define soul: I am soul

Look on the wall: Elelse...

--------------------------
 
I could say that the detective
becomes even more interesting older
wittier drunk a veritable piece
of characterization for you
isn't it marvelous he reads a lot
an amateur critic/philosopher
belongs to a Derridean study group (siècle drags on.)

--------------------------
 
Become more lost in caves...
the caves expand, enclosure dissolves
I want to go to heaven this second
I know I can't stay I've been there before
momentarily
I float alive, larger than history.

Better than history


Pub. May 1998

LAST POEM by Ted Berrigan




Before I began life this time
I took a crash course in Counter-Intelligence
Once here I signed in, see name below, and added
Some words remembered from an earlier time,
"The intention of the organism is to survive."
My earliest, & happiest, memories pre-date WWII,
They involve a glass slipper & a helpless blue rose
In a slender blue single-rose vase: Mine
Was a story without a plot. The days of my years
Folded into one another, an easy fit, in which
I made money & spent it, learned to dance & forgot, gave
Blood, regained my poise, & verbalized myself a place
In Society. 101 St. Mark's Place, apt. 12A, NYC 10009
New York. Friends appeared & disappeared, or wigged out,
Or stayed; inspiring strangers sadly died; everyone
I ever knew aged tremendously, except me. I remained
Somewhere between 2 and 9 years old. But frequent
Reification of my own experiences delivered to me
Several new vocabularies, I loved that almost most of all.
I once had the honor of meeting Beckett & I dug him.
The pills kept me going, until now. Love, & work,
Were my great happinesses, that other people die the source
Of my great, terrible, & inarticulate one grief. In my time
I grew tall & huge of frame, obviously possessed
Of a disconnected head, I had a perfect heart. The end
Came quickly & completely without pain, one quiet night as I
Was sitting, writing, next to you in bed, words chosen randomly
From a tired brain, it, like them, suitable, & fitting.
Let none regret my end who called me friend.

BUDDHA ON THE BOUNTY by Ted Berrigan




                                      for Merrill Gilfillan
"A little loving can solve a lot of things"
She locates two spatial equivalents in
The same time continuum. "You are lovely. I
am lame." "Now it's me." "If a man is in
Solitude, the world is translated, my world
& wings sprout from the shoulders of 'The Slave' "
Yeah. I like the fiery butterfly puzzles
Of this pilgrimage toward clarities
Of great mud intelligence & feeling.
"The Elephant is the wisest of all animals
The only one who remembers his former lives
& he remains motionless for long periods of time
Meditating thereon." I'm not here, now,
            & it is good, absence.

Thursday, December 8, 2011

Art & Lies, Jeanette Winterson:


“Speak Parrot…In order to escape the arbitrary nature of existence I do what the artists do, and impose the most rigorous rules on myself, even if, inevitably, those rules are in turn arbitrary. Language, musical structure, colour and line, offer me a model of discipline out of their own disciplines. What liberties they take are for the sake of a more profound order, the rules they insist on are for the sake of freedom. How shall I learn to discipline myself if not by copying the best models? The paradox is that the artificial and often mechanical nature of the rules produces inexhaustible freedom, just as the harsh Rule of the early monasteries was designed to shut out every inessential, but to fully open spirit and mind.”

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

Wislawa Szymborska from "Starvation Camp Near Jaslo"

"Write it down. Write it. With
   ordinary ink
on ordinary paper: they weren't
   given food,
they all died of hunger. All. How
   many?
It's a large meadow. How much
   grass
per head? Write down: I don't
   know.
History rounds off skeletons to
   zero.
A thousand and one is still only a
   thousand.
That one never seems to have 
   existed
a fictitious fetus, an empty cradle,
a primer opened for no one,
air that laughs, cries, grows,
stairs for avoid bounding out to
   the garden,
no one's spot in the ranks.


It became flesh right here, on this
   meadow.
But the meadow's silent, like a
   witness who has been bought..."

Wislawa Szymborska from "Starvation Camp Near Jaslo"

Wislawa Szymborska from "View with a Grain of Sand"

We call it a grain of sand,
but it calls itself neither grain nor
   sand.
It does just fine without a name,
whether general, particular,
permanent, passing,
incorrect, or apt.

Our glance, our touch mean
   nothing to it.
It doesn't feel itself  
   touched.
And that it fell on the windowsill
is only our experience, not its.
For it, it is no different from
   falling on anything else
with no assurance that it has
   finished falling
or that it is falling still.

portion of "View with a Grain of Sand", Wislawa Szymborska

Wednesday, November 23, 2011

Buffy Sainte Marie's ''Bury My Heart At Wounded Knee'' Lyrics

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Buffy Sainte Marie's ''Bury My Heart At Wounded Knee'' Lyrics

Indian legislations on the desk of a do-right Congressman
Now, he don't know much about the issue
So he picks up the phone and he asks advice from the
Senator out in Indian country
A darling of the energy companies who are
Ripping off what's left of the reservations. HUH.

I learned a safety rule
I don't know who to thank
Don't stand between the reservation
And the corporate bank
They'll send in federal tanks
It isn't nice but it's reality

Bury my heart at Wounded Knee
Deep in the Earth
Cover me with pretty lies
Bury my heart at Wounded Knee. Huh.

They got these energy companies who want the land
And they've got churches by the dozens
Want to guide our hands
And sign Mother Earth over to pollution, war and greed
Get rich... get rich quick.

Bury my heart at Wounded Knee
Deep in the Earth
Cover me with pretty lies
Bury my heart at Wounded Knee. Huh.

We get the federal marshals
We get the covert spies
We get the liars by the fire
And we get the FBIs
They lie in court and get nailed
And still Peltier goes off to jail

Bury my heart at Wounded Knee (eighth of the reservation)
Bury my heart at Wounded Knee (transferred it secret)
Bury my heart at Wounded Knee (of murder and intimidation)
Bury my heart at Wounded Knee

My girlfriend Annie Mae talked about uranium
Her head was filled with bullets and her body dumped
The FBI cut off her hands and told us she'd died of exposure
Loo loo loo loo loo

Bury my heart at Wounded Knee
Deep in the Earth
Cover me with pretty lies
Bury my heart at Wounded Knee
Bury my heart at Wounded Knee
Bury my heart at Wounded Knee
Bury my heart at Wounded Knee
Bury my heart at Wounded Knee

We had the Goldrush Wars
Aw, didn't we learn to crawl
And now our history gets written in a liar's scrawl
They tell 'ya Honey, you can still be an Indian
D-d-down at the 'Y'
On Saturday nights

Bury my heart at Wounded Knee
Deep in the Earth
Cover me with pretty lies
Bury my heart at Wounded Knee.
Deep in the Earth
Cover me with pretty lies
Bury my heart at Wounded Knee
Bury my heart at Wounded Knee

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Wednesday, November 2, 2011

3 Questions for Octavia McBride-Ahebee

3 Questions for Octavia McBride-Ahebee

http://miriamswell.wordpress.com/

1.     What is your personal/aesthetic relationship to the poetic line? That is, how do you understand it, use it, etc.

 The themes of my poems are intense and often overwhelming, so I compose my poetic lines to give pause not only for reflection, but to catch one’s breath before diving into the next part of the poetic narrative.  My poems are focused and dense, so my lines-the breaks-provide a needed relief.  Here are the last three stanzas of my poem, The Water God.  A mother, during Liberia’s civil war, is compelled to flee her home with her child and run for her life.  The child is now dead and the mother must bury her daughter in the forest, but she will give her daughter, despite circumstances, a semblance of a dignified burial.
…I waited for nightfall,
for those plants who invite you,
with the ferocity of their opening bouquets,
to bow down  and believe through the dark.

Using the petals of these nocturnal flowers,
I perfumed Fatima’s shroud,
dug her grave with two handless limbs
and pointed her in Mecca’s direction.

  I gave our child
to the season of rain,
the sounds its watery toll awakened
was her requiem
and her ushers into the entry
of a gutted forest floor,
away from a war not at all civil,
were sleepy monarchs
inflamed with life
and so splendid in their silence.


2. Do you find a relationship between words and writing and the human body? Or between your writing and your body?
             For me, writing is as much a cerebral endeavor as it is a physical encounter.  My emotions, when composing poetry, when reading poetry, when orally delivering poetry and when listening to poetry, have physical manifestations in the form of a laugh or a cry or tears or the tightening of my belly or my hands shaking in relief because I am thankful to have reached the end of a poem.  Oh, yes, my body and I are very much cohorts when we meet words.
            Despite being a very short poem What Remains is so packed with emotion and memories and gratitude that when I recite it, and I love reciting it, I am so physically exhausted by this exercise. My mother, a lover of poetry, now has Alzheimer’s and though she has lost significant memories, she still can recall, with an almost physical fervor, her dearest poets.
What Remains
For Mom


her memory
a soup of evaporating dissonance
had survivors
gentlemen with brogues, mouthing all kinds of blues
Yeats & lots of Langston

      

3.     Is there anything you dislike about being a poet?

Identifying myself as a poet has been and is a source of joy for me. I am an elementary teacher as well.  I taught at the International Community School of Abidjan, in Cote d’Ivoire, where more than 70 nationalities were represented in the student body before CI’s civil war began in 2002.  I wrote a poem for one particular class of my fourth graders called Oasis.    And the refrain that runs through this poem is my mantra:

                                                                             1.
                                                                        (continued)    


… I come each day
to the whole of the world,
sometimes five minutes late,
but always with hope.
Octavia McBride-Ahebee is a poet whose work has  appeared in  Damazine; A Literary Journal of the Muslim World, Fingernails Across The Chalkboard: Poetry And Prose on HIV/AIDS From the Black Diaspora, Under Our Skin: Literature of Breast Cancer, Sea Breeze- A Journal of Contemporary Liberian Writing , The Journal of the National Medical Association, Art in Medicine Section and the Beloit Poetry Journal.  Her poetry collections include Assuming Voices  and Where My Birthmark Dances which was published in July 2011 by Finishing Line Press.
Octavia’s blog is Eyes on the World: http://omcbride-ahebee.blogspot.com/

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Kobun Chino Roshi says: "Without throwing your whole life and body into others you can never reach to your own true nature."

The way to discover your origin is to listen to the one with whom you feel, "This is it!" It looks like you can do it by yourself, without others, but actually, by yourself alone you cannot discover that origin. Reaching that point, you never believe, "This is it." But pointing to another's origin directly and saying, "That's my origin," at that moment another finger appears, pointing at you, and says, "No, that's my origin." And you get dizzy. "Wait a minute, are you my teacher or are you my student?" And both say, "No, it doesn't matter. I can be your student; I'll be an ancient Buddha for you." The student says this to the teacher. Without throwing your whole life and body into others you can never reach to your own true nature. The more your understanding of life becomes clearer, and more exact, and painfully joyful, the more you feel, "I'm so bad." The one who appears and says, "No, you are not bad at all, that is the way to go," that is your teacher. Don't misunderstand—this teacher is not always a person. It can embrace you like morning dew in a field, and you get a strange feeling, "Oh, this is it, my teacher is this field." Kobun Chino Roshi http://www.kobun-sama.org/english/vortrag.htm

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

Kobun Chino Roshis says and I agree...

"The main subject of this sesshin is how to become a transmitter of actual light, life light. Practice takes place to shape your whole ability to reflect the light coming through you, and to regenerate your system, so the light increases its power. Each precept is a remark about hard climbing. Maybe climbing down (to the very ground of your being). You don't use the precepts for accomplishing your own personality or fulfilling your dream of your highest image. You don't use the precepts in that way. The precepts are the reflective light world of one precept, which is Buddha's mind itself, which is the presence of Buddha. Zazen is the first formulation of the accomplishment of Buddha existing. The more you sense the rareness and value of your own life, the more you realize that how you use it, how you manifest it, is all your responsibility. We face such a big task so, naturally, such a person sits down for a while. It's not an intended action, it's a natural action."
Kobun Chino Roshi

Philip Whalen says and I believe him...

“…I know now that imagining myself to be a responsible intellectual and a revolutionary was nonsense. Today, it is very clear to me that the Palatine Anthology and the poems of Frank O’Hara are greater revolutionary documents than the entire literary production of N. Lenin or Chairman Mao.

The necessity for compete political revolution is very clear to me. The economic system of finance capitalism and international monopoly is manifestly evil. It is killing us all with wars and machines and is swiftly burying the surface of the world in  slag and garbage and poison. The governments whose job it is to protect us from depredations of these monopolies have simply become instruments of the industries they were supposed to control. So of course the big government big monopoly combine must be dismantled very soon. It will be necessary to hang an “out to lunch” sign over Washington DC and sit down together and figure out a different way of managing our affairs. The answer certainly does not involve the manufacture of oatmeal poetry, unless perhaps, one were to take the quality of the poetry for a symptom of the truly desperate change I’ve been talking about.

I have a hunch that if I write a really good poem today about the weather, about a flower or any other apparently “irrelevant” (I suppose the proper word, now is “nonrelevant,” if we are to be understood) subject, that the revolution will be hastened considerably more than if I composed a pamphlet attacking the government and the capitalist system. If you think about it a moment, the reason becomes obvious.”
Philip Whalen, Preface from Decompressions

Thursday, September 29, 2011

William Blake: The Marriage of Heaven and Hell

The voice of the Devil.

All Bibles or sacred codes have been the causes of the following Errors.

1. That Man has two real existing principles Viz: a Body & a Soul.
2. That Energy, call'd Evil, is alone from the Body, & that Reason, call'd Good, is alone from the Soul.
3. That God will torment Man in Eternity for following his Energies.

But the following Contraries to these are True

1. Man has no Body distinct from his Soul for that call'd Body is a portion of Soul discern'd by the five Senses, the chief inlets of Soul in this age
2. Energy is the only life and is from the Body and Reason is the bound or outward circumference of Energy.
3 Energy is Eternal Delight




Those who restrain desire, do so because theirs is weak enough to be restrained; and the restrainer or reason usurps its place & governs the unwilling.
And being restrain'd it by degrees becomes passive till it is only the shadow of desire.
The history of this is written in Paradise Lost, & the Governor or Reason is call'd Messiah.
And the original Archangel or possessor of the command of the heavenly host, is call'd the Devil or Satan and his children are call'd Sin & Death.
But in the Book of Job Miltons Messiah is call'd Satan.
For this history has been adopted by both parties.
It indeed appear'd to Reason as if Desire was cast out, but the Devil's account is, that the Messiah fell, & formed a heaven of what he stole from the Abyss.


This is shewn in the Gospel, where he prays to the Father to send the comforter or Desire that Reason may have Ideas to build on, the Jehovah of the Bible being no other than he who dwells in flaming fire.
Know that after Christs death, he became Jehovah.
But in Milton; the Father is Destiny, the Son, a Ratio of the five senses, & the Holy-ghost, Vacuum!
Note: The reason Milton wrote in fetters when he wrote of Angels & God, and at liberty when of Devils & Hell, is because he was a true Poet and of the Devils party without knowing it.

William Blake: The Marriage of Heaven and Hell

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Fourteen Actors Acting

The flavor of tasting
stands, itself a
cello wrapped in
legs, a smoke or
a drop – this Cave,
this Redhead, Vortex
lips & tongue: release
without a knot
or even a phone!



John Bailes/Kotatsu Roko
Prospect Hill
Tuesday 27 September 2011

Sunday, September 25, 2011

Everyday Zen Sesshin

Everyday Zen Sesshin


Eating lunch in silence
the sound of crisp pickled cucumbers
fills the dining hall;
rain on a tin roof.


For Tenzo Laura



John Bailes/Kotatsu Roko
Santa Sabina Center
San Rafael. California
17 September, 2011


Is grace light standing?
Grace is light,

                             Standing.

Grace
Is
Light
Standing.

John Bailes/Kotatsu Roko
35,000 feet
Tuesday, 20 September 2011, early morning

Flying west to east in the middle of the night I think of John High

Flying west to east in the middle of the night I think of John High


You once wrote, and it is still written and in print too:

“why did you never ask me (if I love you)”.

I say, if I love you, will you ask me, or do you ask you, or do I ask me?

How particular is this asking? 
Is it always or never?

Basking whales roll in the sea slipping through, occasionally eyeballing humans lucky enough to see being seen. 

Most of us do not know our own seeing and especially being seen.

(Maybe there are vague inklings.)

John Berger wrote an entire book, maybe two, “On Looking” and “On Seeing.”

Does one have to look to see?
Does seeing occur only when there are no eyes?
Even when we think we have eyes, no eyes are seeing. 

Always say I love you even if I never ask.

Is grace light standing?
Grace is light,
                  
                             Standing.


I make up everything I say, even me, with a lot of help from my friends, the kindness of strangers, the albino deer, the one-eyed boy, the lake and the mere grain of sand I am.

With love,

John Bailes/Kotatsu Roko
35,000 Feet
Tuesday 20 September 2011, early morning.

Friday, September 9, 2011

Walter Benjamin: Selected Writings, Volume 3, 1935-1938Walter Benjamin: Selected Writings, Volume 3, 1935-1938 by Walter Benjamin
My rating: 5 of 5 stars

"Three essays into this gizmo & I'm totally awed by this guy! Overarching syncretizing intelligence: art, commoditization, architecture, archetypes, epochal dreams of bourgeois markets evolving through 19th century Paris: arcades, dept stores, high end gunk...upper middle class striving 2 b & 2 show as the merchants enjoy the freedom of post empire France...But then 2 an extraordinary review of Brecht's 3 Penny Novel!" I'm can't wait to continue reading!


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Zen Baggage: A Pilgrimage to ChinaZen Baggage: A Pilgrimage to China by Bill Porter
My rating: 5 of 5 stars

Go all the way to 10th century China carrying a cell phone, riding a bus, drinking tea, getting cold wet and tired...Go all the way! Travelling with Red Pine is so much fun and then he throws in his vast knowledge of Chinese Buddhism and literature, especially poetry. I hang on his footnotes. This book is the next best thing to travelling China with Red Pine. What an exceeding generous host to a world very far away and hard to reach.  Only a few pass through and fewer yet come back and share the tale.


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The Ritual Process: Structure and Anti-Structure (Lewis Henry Morgan Lectures) The Ritual Process: Structure and Anti-Structure (Lewis Henry Morgan Lectures) by Victor Witter Turner
My rating: 3 of 5 stars

Somehow I think it would have been much more fun to be in a graduate seminar at the University of Chicago with Professor Turner or even a bar on the South Side listening to the Blues applying all that knowledge, insight and creativity. I have heard some good stories. This book is definitely for the anthropology minded. But the liminal mind as accessed through ritual whether African, Episcopalian (and now I guess we have both joined being the African Episcopalians are a major force in that branch of the universe) Tibetan or Zen.  We offer light, incense, fruit, sweet tea and our consciousness to pass through that threshold, that gateway which even Heidegger talks about and probably stumbled through as far as I can gather from his later mutterings.  Be careful oh scientist, philosopher, your methodology cannot protect you. There is no working condom for life.


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Monday, August 15, 2011

A statement about civilization for Gilles Deleuze


A statement about civilization:



That Freud tried to “cure” the Wolf-Man
Rather than allow him free
He never knew
The dead tree
The true howl
Of humanity.



John Bailes/Kotatsu Roko
Monday, 15 August 2011
Prospect Hill

Maestro for John HIgh




Maestro
for John High



lyric dreamer
standing
only
in the

OPEN

translucent tissue
tongue and fossil
moment
to all

Time

i have always wanted
to travel cross country
from Istanbul to Vienna
Baron von Munchausen, Time Bandits
from one gate of civilization
to another

and

what is in between
but this moment
this quivering translucent
moment of ephemeral
eternal tissue
co-creating
life



John Bailes, Kotatsu Roko
Tuesday, 3 May 2011
Prospect Hill

Just Some Buddhist Doggerel


Just Some Buddhist Doggerel




Until
you are ash
your voice
is not
black
light.

Until
you are ash
you do not know
your voice
is
black
light.

Always
black light
not always
ash.

You
Your
Ash
Not know
Voice
Is
Black
Light
Always




John Bailes/Kotatsu Roko
Monday, 15 August 2011
Prospect Hill


Sunday, June 26, 2011

I can only say, if you think the future doesn't hurt yet please listen more closely?

This article is from the New York Times. It is by Matthieu Ricard, 
a French scientist who has become a renowned Buddhist Monk.

June 23, 2011

The Future Doesn't Hurt. Yet

By MATTHIEU RICARD



When, in the early morning, I sit in the little meadow in front of my hermitage on a quiet hilltop, two hours’ drive from Katmandu in Nepal, my eyes take in hundreds of miles of lofty Himalayan peaks glowing in the rising sun. The serenity of the scenery blends naturally and seamlessly with the peace within. It is a long way indeed from the frantic city life I once lived.
But the peace I know is no escape from the world below — or the science I once studied. I work with the toughest problems of the real world in the 30 clinics and schools that Karuna-Shechen, the foundation I created with a few dedicated friends and benefactors, runs in Tibet, Nepal and India. And now, after 40 years among these majestic mountains, I have become acutely aware of the ravages of climate change in the Himalayas and on the Tibetan plateau. From where I sit in my little meadow, it is especially sad to witness the Himalayan peaks becoming grayer and grayer as glaciers melt and snows recede.
The debate about climate change is mostly conducted by people who live in cities, where everything is artificial. They don’t actually experience the changes that are taking place in the real world. The vast majority of Tibetans, Nepalese and Bhutanese who live on both sides of the Himalayas have never heard of global warming, as they have little or no access to the news media. Yet they all say that the ice is not forming as thickly as before on lakes and rivers, that winter temperatures are getting warmer and the spring blossoms are coming earlier. What they may not know is that these are symptoms of far greater dangers.
In the beautiful kingdom of Bhutan, where I spent nine years, recent investigations by the only glaciologist in the country, Kharma Thoeb, have shown that a natural moraine dam that separates two glacial lakes in the Lunana area is today only 31 meters deep, in comparison to 74 meters in 2003. If this wall gives way, some 53 million cubic meters of water will rush down the valley of Punakha and Wangdi, causing immense damage and loss of life. Altogether there are 400 glacial lakes in Nepal and Bhutan that may break their natural dams and flood populated areas lower in the valleys. If these floods occur, the glaciers will increasingly shrink. This will cause drought, since the streams and rivers will not be fed by melting snow.
Chinese climatologists have called the Himalayan glaciers and other major mountains located in the Tibetan plateau the “third pole” of our ailing planet. There are 40,000 large and small glaciers on the Tibetan plateau and this area is melting at a rate three to four times faster than the North and South Poles. The melting is particularly accelerated in the Himalayas by the pollution that settles on the snow and darkens the glaciers, making them more absorbent to light.
According to international development agencies, about half of the populations of China, Myanmar, Thailand, Laos, Cambodia, Vietnam, India and Pakistan depend on the watershed from the rivers of the Tibetan plateau for their agriculture, general water supply, and, therefore, survival. The consequences of the drying up of these great rivers will be catastrophic.
When I was 20, I was hired as a researcher in the cellular genetics lab of François Jacob, who had just been awarded the Nobel Prize for medicine. There, I worked for six years toward my doctorate. Life was far from dull, but something essential was missing.
Everything changed in Darjeeling in northern India in 1967, when I met several remarkable human beings who, for me, exemplified what a fulfilled human life can be. These Tibetan masters, all of whom had just fled the Communist invasion of Tibet, radiated inner goodness, serenity and compassion. Returning from this first journey, I became aware that I’d found a reality that could inspire my whole life and give it direction and meaning. In 1972, I decided to move to Darjeeling, in the shadow of the Himalayas, to study with the great Tibetan masters Kangyur Rinpoche and Dilgo Khyentse Rinpoche.
In India and then in Bhutan, I lived a beautiful and simple life. I came to understand that while some people may be naturally happier than others, their happiness is still vulnerable and incomplete; that achieving durable happiness as a way of being requires sustained effort in training the mind and developing qualities like inner peace, mindfulness and altruistic love.
Then one day in 1979, shortly after our monastery in Nepal had been equipped with a phone line, someone called me from France to ask if I would like to engage in a dialogue with my father, the philosopher Jean-François Revel. I said “of course,” but thought that I would never hear from the person again, as I did not believe that my father, a renowned agnostic, would ever want to dialogue with a Buddhist monk, even one who was his son. But to my surprise, he readily accepted and we spent a wonderful 10 days in Nepal, discussing many issues about the meaning of life. That was the end of my quiet, anonymous life and the beginning of a different way of interacting with the world. The book that followed, The Monk and the Philosopher, became a bestseller in France and was translated into 21 languages.
It dawned on me that much more money than I had ever envisioned having would be coming my way. Since I could not see myself acquiring an estate in France or somewhere else, it seemed to me that the most natural thing to do would be to donate all the proceedings and rights of that and subsequent books to helping others. The foundation I created for that purpose is now called Karuna-Shechen, and it implements and maintains humanitarian and educational projects throughout Asia.
Humanitarian projects have since become a central focus of my life and, with a few dedicated volunteer friends and generous benefactors, and under the inspiration of the abbot of my monastery, Rabjam Rinpoche, we have built and run clinics and schools in Tibet, Nepal and India where we treat about 100,000 patients a year and provide education to nearly 10,000 children. We have managed to do this spending barely 4 percent of our budget on overhead expenses.
My life has definitely become more hectic, but I have also discovered over the years that trying to transform oneself to better transform the world brings lasting fulfillment and, above all, the irreplaceable boon of altruism and compassion.
Imagine a ship that is sinking and needs all the available power to run the pumps to drain out the rising waters. The first class passengers refuse to cooperate because they feel hot and want to use the air-conditioner and other electrical appliances. The second-class passengers spend all their time trying to be upgraded to first-class status. The boat sinks and the passengers all drown. That is where the present approach to climate change is leading.
Whether people realize it or not, their actions can have disastrous effects — as the environmental changes in the Himalayas, the Arctic circle and many other places are showing us. The unbridled consumerism of our planet’s richest 5 percent is the greatest contributor to the climate change that will bring the greatest suffering to the most destitute 25 percent, who will face the worst consequences. According to the U.S. Department of Energy, on average an Afghan produces 0.02 tons of CO2 per year, a Nepalese and a Tanzanian 0.1, a Briton 10 tons, an American 19 and a Qatari 51 tons, which is 2,500 times more than an Afghan.
Unchecked consumerism operates on the premise that others are only instruments to be used and that the environment is a commodity. This attitude fosters unhappiness, selfishness and contempt upon other living beings and upon our environment. People are rarely motivated to change on behalf of something for their future and that of the next generation. They imagine, “Well, we’ll deal with that when it comes.” They resist the idea of giving up what they enjoy just for the sake of avoiding disastrous long-term effects. The future doesn’t hurt — yet.
An altruistic society is one in which we do not care only for ourselves and our close relatives, but for the quality of life of all present members of society, while being mindfully concerned as well by the fate of coming generations.
In particular, we need to make significant progress concerning the way we treat animals, as objects of consumption and industrial products, not as living beings who strive for well-being and want to avoid suffering. Every year, more than 150 billion land animals are killed in the world for human consumption, as well as some 1.5 trillion sea animals. In rich countries, 99 percent of these land animals are raised and killed in industrial farms and live only a fraction of their life expectancy. In addition, according to United Nations and FAO reports on climate change, livestock production is responsible for a greater proportion of emissions (18 percent) of greenhouse gases than the entire global transportation sector. One solution may be to eat less meat!
As the Dalai Lama has often pointed out, interdependence is a central Buddhist idea that leads to a profound understanding of the nature of reality and to an awareness of global responsibility. Since all beings are interrelated and all, without exception, want to avoid suffering and achieve happiness, this understanding becomes the basis for altruism and compassion. This in turn naturally leads to the attitude and practice of nonviolence toward human beings and animals — and toward the environment.


Matthieu Ricard was a scientist in cell genetics 40 years ago when he decided to live in the Himalayas and become a Buddhist monk. He is a photographer and the author of several books, including “Happiness: How to Cultivate Life’s Most Important Skill.” He lives in Nepal and has been involved in more than 100 humanitarian projects.